Day 9

Starting Weight: 221
Today's Weight: 215.2
Total Loss: 5.8 pounds

I started today off feeling good.  Tried Subway's breakfast for the first time and cut that 500 calorie breakfast sandwich I'm used to down to 180 calories.  And I could taste it in every bite :)  I don't know that Subway could become a morning routine for me (especially with no drive thru) but could be an alternative to my working on the weekend McDonalds runs.  I finally had the move out inspection with the landlord at lunch today so I was able to eat at home for lunch which made it easy to control my calories.  I had a lean cuisine stuffed hot pocket thing with chicken, cheese, and jalepeno in a pretzel bread that was actually really good.  It wasn't very big but I drank a large glass of water with it and was satisfied when I finished it. 

I ran around like a madperson after work trying to find something to wear for the gorilla challenge on saturday so didn't get any exercise in on the treadmill today.  At to make it worse I didn't make great choices for dinner out.  I even saw the under 600 calorie menu when I was at Famous Dave's but then asked myself if I really drove to southcenter to eat broccoli, pineapple, and ribs with no sauce?  Uh, the answer, in case you are wondering, is no.  I was more than 300 calories under my goal yesterday so I figure even though I went over today it will somewhat even out. 

Then after my huge shopping success (finding the perfect t-shirts for saturday and an entire outfit, shoes included, for Logan for the going away party) we stopped at Auntie Annies :(  I really have no logic or reasoning for why I ate this.  It smelled good and I really like the way it tastes?  When I really think about it though I think it is just a habit for me to do these things when I'm out with friends or even just out shopping.  Why is that?  Maybe because sitting down to eat is social and really what I'm enjoying is the company or conversation but feel awkward just sitting and talking to someone rather than eating or drinking something while talking.  It's like we need a preoccupation or distraction from what we are really doing so we use food or coffee for that purpose.  I almost feel anxious or like I'm wasting time when I don't have that distraction (why are we just sitting here?!).  I have noticed (in the last 3 minutes that I've been thinking about this topic) that I never just sit and talk with people.  I am either driving, eating, drinking, flipping through a magazine or whatever when I have conversations with people.  Could I have just identified a pattern here?  Groundbreaking.  Haha.  I can tell this is something I'm going to have to pay close attention to in order to correct this behavior.  I'm going to write it at the top of my food journal pages for the next week to make sure I revisit this issue and see if I can dig a little deeper here.

Its 11:52pm so I better be hitting the hay. 

Thanks for reading,
Mellissa

Food Journal April 5, 2011

Breakfast - 180 calories
ham/egg/cheese Subway
Lunch - 280 calories
LC hot pocket
Water
Snack - 350 calories
Tall Iced Chai
PB cupcake (bite size) Starbucks - best 180 calories I've spent in a loooog time!
Dinner - ??!?
2 bones of ribs
1 corn bread muffin
1/4 cup baked beans
10 french fries
Shopping - ? Should I really have a meal named shopping?  Honestly.
Pretzel Bites
Jalapeno Cheese
Small strawberry lemonade freeze
Total calories - too damn many